My awesome new purchase. Yes, that’s a MY MELODY… razor. I just had to buy it. I mean seriously.

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Oh jeeze! I was surprised when I saw this this morning. I’ve become one of those blogs I hate, haha.

To explain, when Dai was first diagnosed, I scoured the web for any information, but mostly for blogs of people who were going through the same thing. There are lots of blogs out there for adults with ALL, some even PH+, but a problem is a lot of them just…. stop.

Like, a year ago they made their last stupid post and that was it, nothing.

Sometimes I would mail them, and they would be fine. They’d just lost interest in blogging. But other times, if you googled their name or pictures, you’d find out that soon after they’d died. Sadly, it was usually the later.

So I never wanted to be that blog, that starts off with “ALL PH+” and then drops off the face of the earth!

Anyways, things are OK! I’ve been having a tough time emotionally these past weeks, so I haven’t felt at all like writing or really engaging the outside world, lol. Dai is doing OK, too! He’s a little worried because his blood counts have been on the low side and he’s in a normal room, not a clean room (they were all full), but they’re not dangerously low so things are good.

I know that lots of new ALTs will be getting their placements if they haven’t already (my office already got the info packet of our newbie), so I want to post some more ALT stuff, I just need to crawl out of this funk first! 

But thanks for the concern whoever this anonymous commenter is.

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At home sick today with my super cold, coughcoughcough. I very rarely take sick days for a cold, but today was a super long day at elementary school, and my voice was a barely understandable croak. 

But hey, good news! I went to see the surgical dept. doctor to get my stitches cleaned and bandages changed, and he totally surprised me by saying he got the biopsy results early! I’m happy to report that even though the lymph nodes were super big, painless, and awkward, there was

so I live to fight another day!

back from rainy Sapporo/Otaru for golden week. Lots of fun! Except my birthday cold came back with vengeance and stole my voice for most of it, leaving me either whispering or croaking like a lifetime smoker.

Did some cool shit and some stupid (but fun) shit and I hope I can post some pics but I have to see the doctor about fixin some stitches at 8am so zzzzzzzz

biopsy tiiiime

The biopsy was today, and it was so surreal.

I went in by myself, thinking I was going to be a Strong Adult, and ended up crying literally from the moment I stepped into the surgical room. What can I say, it was scary!! I’m an easy crier, so it wasn’t a shock, but it was wicked embarrassing. I teach some of their kid’s for goodness sake!

As they were prepping me on the table a loud crying suddenly started from the next room. A young male nurse with super sweet eyes leaned over and was like, “Can you hear that? A baby was just born in the next room. I heard it’s a boy.” Meanwhile I’m blubbering just as lame as any baby.

The actual biopsy wasn’t nearly as bad as my own worry. It was all under local anesthetic, so I was awake the whole time, blocked from seeing by a curtain (it was in my groin). It only started hurting once, in the middle, and they quickly gave me more medicine. From there on out it just felt like they were poking and massaging. A few times I had some nausea, probably because they were literally up inside me taking shit out.

The doctor… I don’t know what to say about him. He just couldn’t stop making mean jokes (in a nice way, teasing, nothing over the line). The whole time he wouldn’t let up on the younger doctor assisting him. Young doc was getting married soon, and had done a fancy traditional meeting between the families with gifts and all, very Japanese money. Older doctor kept teasing him, calling him Princeling, asking if he liked his arranged marriage, if they’d be combining servants, etc.

I was like, this is funny by STOP MAKING HIS LAUGH HE IS LITERALLY CUTTING MY FLESH jk I couldn’t feel shit, couldn’t care less.

The whole thing took maybe a half an hour, not counting prep and getting me out of the room. He showed me what they removed— a gross little vial of flesh. He apparently took two lymph nodes. Why, I have no idea. The results should be in after a couple weeks.

So it’s done! I still don’t know if I should tell my family, or Dai. I don’t want to get them all worried if it’s nothing. But if it’s something, it’d be really sudden. But at least they would suffer 1 week less of worry.

Until then, medicine time~

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I half want Alaska to win so she can create the royal couple of drag with Sharon, but gotta go with my heart….

super old begins NOW

well as of today (japan time) I have become.. 

to celebrate, I have cultivated an amazing cold!!! yessss, just in time for my birthday, It’s day 3 so I’m feeling a lot better than day 1, but I’m a bit worried about sounding like a scratchy voice old lady tomorrow (plus infecting kids with my birthday plague).

I had planned to do barbecue with some friends. They even made me a cake! I told them to go ahead and eat it lol. They’re going to drop by some later for my dinner.

in memory of 25, here’s a gif of me messing around in my pajamas when I got my new laptop about a year ago, and realized I finally had a working webcam(!!!!). yep this is what 25 looked like for me pretty much: stupid.

and with that, goodbye 25! It was a good run. We laughed, we cried, we cried a lot more, we drank too much. Wish I could say I’m sad to see you go but 26 is going to be fabulous so.

This just arrived this afternoon, a special gift from my boyfriend. A Hello Kitty mousse cake!!

It’s a small size, though still pretty huge for one person. If only all my cake-loving friends weren’t out of town for Golden Week(end)! I had one piece, and it’s just yummmmm.

He says that he has a couple other small things coming on my real birthday (the 29th), though I can’t imagine what. Just having him temporarily out of the hospital and  being able to Skype with him these past days has been enough of a gift.